Skip to main content

dealing with reality

We have reached a place where it does not matter one whit what anyone thinks of us.

The sheer amount of exposure is forcing the hand of governments, public institutions and private companies to act and treat us with respect. What is helping is that transgender people come from all walks of life and among themselves they represent a mini cross section of society. Hence their credibility continues to grow.

We are lawyers, academics, scientists, teachers, engineers, actors and we are out in a public way as never before. That reality must be addressed because we are not going away and our number (although statistically small) gives us credibility. Some highly intelligent and well placed individuals are transgender.

It no longer matters what the detractors think because we are not going away and we cannot be healed through shock treatment or psychotherapy.

The Blanchardians, the ultra-orthodox, the feminists and the politically conservative can have their input but it will change nothing since this is not an issue that requires the opinions of myopic people on a subject that even we who experience it can barely comprehend.

Here is where reality trumps conjecture.

The Obama administration, my own Canadian government and the leaderships of other countries are enacting laws to protect our rights. They must deal with the reality that people need to transition or at least lead authentic lives instead of killing themselves or living with constant depression.

With numbers this significant you cannot claim mass delusion or moral decay since many of us are upstanding citizens with exemplary records.

We just happen to be transgender.


Popular posts from this blog

looking past cross gender arousal

Jack’s latest Crossdreamers post got me thinking about cross gender arousal and how it could be avoided; also whether it even matters. This with particular focus on the inability to relate of someone on the outside looking in.

You see, sexuality is a very complicated thing to begin with and when you then add gender identity ambiguity it becomes a recipe to really confuse someone.

So imagine that you are a little boy who identifies as a girl but then along comes puberty and short circuits everything by having the sex you identify with also be the sex you are attracted to. For in essence this is what happens to all all male to female gender dysphoric trans persons who are attracted to women.

So I ask myself: can I imagine a scenario where this inherent contradiction would not produce sexual confusion? The answer is that I cannot.

I am in the unique position, like many of you, to have experienced an early identification with the feminine become sexualized later on. This brought confusion…

understanding the erotic component

I have written about crossed wires before in two separate posts. The idea is that one cannot pass through puberty and the development of sexual feelings for females and not have your pre-existing gender dysphoria be impacted through your psychosexual development. The hormone responsible for your libido is testosterone which is present in much stronger concentration in males and is why gynephilics are most likely to experience erotic overtones as the conflict between romantic external feelings and their pull towards the feminine become permanently intertwined.

Because I came from a deeply religious family where sex was not discussed much at all, I grew up with little access to information and was very much ignorant of matters relating to the subject. With no firsthand experience in intercourse until I married I was then faced with the reality that my ability to perform sexually had been deeply impacted by my dysphoric feelings. This began years of turmoil and self-deprecating thoughts …

a blending

An interesting thing is happening to me: as I have fully embraced being transgender my male and female anima are becoming blended. The female side is no longer an unwelcome appendage which, as a result, has allowed me to craft a more genuine and happier male image.

I dress when I want to and sometimes I cut outings shorter than before. I am my own master in this regard and feel in control.

Don't get me wrong in that the dysphoria is not going away and is sometimes like a wild stallion that threatens to jump the fence but I have learnt to understand it’s demands after all these years hence a transition for me is definitely not in the cards. At this point I am not even foreseeing a social one.

The two sides are no longer in conflict and they are now intertwined to create a fusion that is unique to me. That answer finally came when I reached a full level of self assurance about who I am and learned to embrace that I am trans and yes, that includes my dysphoria's erotic undertones…