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oh joy....

If being transgender were such a gift, transgender women wouldn't be killed and people would be accepted by their own families. Most of us would have grown up expressing gender the way we felt comfortable. We also wouldn't have struggled so long to attain self acceptance.

The fact is that being an anomaly is rarely seen as a good thing in our society and because of that, I have learnt to live with how I am. It certainly didn't come without much grief.

Growing up different gives you perspective and that isn't a bad thing. Challenges can encourage growth and allow us to have empathy for others.

This difference of ours is less accepted than others because it is little understood. This has left the field open for speculation and ideas which aim to injure and assign blame to transgender people themselves.

But every transgender person knows that they had nothing to do with their own creation. They do however have a certain amount of control over what they do.

Today I am neither overjoyed nor upset about the way I am. I have come to accept it the way someone accepts being born with a setback which they then learn to appreciate as bringing some good. At first all is bleak but then a light is switched on inside.

As I write this I have a wonderful woman in my life and two great kids who are making their way to adulthood. I have health for now and that is all that matters. Money comes and goes but peace of mind is worth so much more.

So yes there can be joy while being transgender. It just needs to fit into your life rather than have it be your life.

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  1. i have to argree. Being transgender has certainly been a challenge but it has also given me great gifts. I see the world in a more complete and balanced perspective. I also have a family....a wife and two great kids and so it is important to keep things in harmony.

    I certainly to wonder what life would be like if being transgender was completely accepted, even encouraged in people who showed signs of it. I just wonder what potential I had and who I would have become.

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  2. it would have been nice to know for me as well Liza. I grew up with so much suppression.

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