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arousal: an analogy

Why does a drag queen not find women’s clothes arousing? Simple answer: they are not attracted to women.

Why does a fetish transvestite or a crossdresser find women’s clothing sexually exciting? for exactly the opposite reason.

Why does neither individual wish to transition? Neither has gender dysphoria and the most you might say about each one is that they are gender non-conforming.

Now give gender dysphoria to each and you potentially have a gynephilic and an androphilic transsexual.

The presence of arousal does not disqualify the basic transsexualism because it simply is a symptom of orientation. However take away the dysphoria and each of the aforementioned grows up to be either a straight man or a gay man with neither needing to question their gender identity.

When I was a young child I experienced no arousal but when I reached puberty my dysphoria came into conflict with my sexual orientation. This caused a great deal of confusion and the immediate removal of all of the clothing after experiencing any kind of sexual excitement. When I reached adulthood everything would end up in a dumpster.

What Ray Blanchard got wrong is that the identified arousal is not a driver for transition. In fact I attribute my arousal patterns from keeping me from examining my gender issues at all since for the longest time I chalked my situation up to some sort of sexual problem. Little did I know that other people were transitioning having experienced the same thing only they did not give as much weight to the phenomenon as I did. They understood that it wasn’t arousal driving their path forward.

Today I understand the very same thing although I am not a full blown transsexual.

Both androphilics and gynephilics were ending up in Blanchard’s clinic with the intent of carrying through with their transitions and where he formulated his two type model of transsexualism. The statistics show that both have similar rates of satisfaction only that gynephilics historically transition later because they tend to marry women and deny their gender issues for a much longer time.

But if arousal were indeed a main motivator the best thing a gynephilic should do is not transition since hormonal treatment and surgery kills the sex drive. However transsexuals are not looking for arousal but instead seeking a resolution to a gender conflict they have always known since birth. The fact they carry through regardless proves that this is not their main motivator but instead an aspect that simply tags along for the ride.


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