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before and after

Being both male and female can work. You can make anything work if you put your mind to it.

My ability to switch back and forth is almost down to an art form and I can be ready as Joanna in about 15 minutes. My forms and padding, my wig, a top,a pair of jeans, boots (its winter), makeup and a hat and I'm out the door.

I don't get double takes or second glances anymore and am addressed in the right pronouns. If that isn't passing I don't know what is and its infinitely better than it used to be when I felt supremely uncomfortable out in public. I almost felt like I had no right to exist in that form and felt embarrassed. This is an attitude that has no place in the life of a transgender person.

It has been a slow and organic progression that contrasts so sharply with my life of just 5 short years ago. Things are literally night and day in comparison and I have been indulging in the best aspects of gender presentation and comportment that help soothe my dysphoria and keep it in check.

I feel like those before and after adds for weight loss.

I recently corresponded with Nancy D, who was the first person who treated me back in 2007 at the Montreal General Hospital Gender Identity clinic. We wished each other a happy new year and she asked if I was expressing myself freely as the person I am to which I more than happily responded that I was.

Sometimes what seems impossible at the time most definitely is possible.


  1. I was impressed with your first sentence Joanna “Being both male and female can work”. I must say I am slowly coming to the conclusion two years since Abigale has emerged to have more say in the ‘me’, that I could live with the Yin and Yang, moving back and forth between my girl and boy self. One of the many problems personal and social at the moment with this is that I do not have enough ‘Yin’ time, but I’ll working on it.
    Love Abigale

    1. I am glad if you can make it work Abi. I believe that it is more than possible...


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