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transgender phases

The other day I wrote about arousal and how it’s part of an overall picture for gynephilics but far from being a main driver. What is interesting is that we go through phases.

First is the very innocent prepubescent period where we crossdress and are happy to express ourselves as we are. Then we hit puberty and there is a search for both sexual and gender identity and our place on the spectrum somewhere. These tend to be turbulent years where we begin to reject being transgender and try to repair ourselves because we are rejected and we want to fit in. Most of us plunge into marriage and children and hope that our gender issues disappear. Of course they do not.

As we age the arousal component begins to wane and we create a balanced identity as a transgender person. We mature and we form a kind of union between the male and female components that make up the essence of our being. Here some of us experiment with hormones and/or have surgery while others don’t.

This last period begins to resemble the early period of our lives where we are innocent and express ourselves as we feel before society gets to us in earnest. It’s like we have come full circle.

It would be nice to skip the middle phase I suppose but even those people who are not transgender find those years to be the most turbulent. We struggle to define ourselves and where we fit in to the world.

By the way, Zagria's amazing website led me to a very caustic page that I suspect is run by Kay Brown (although I can't be sure). Regardless it is so obviously run by an androphilic transsexual trying to make sure they are not confused with fetishist males. Its an old story that I have seen time and time again but what I take from all this is that some of these people are so insecure in their womanhood that they feel compelled to take pot shots at people they deem to be perverts.

I stick to the work of Anne Vitale who states the obvious: you can't change someone's biological sex and all you can do is undergo a gender role transition. Of course I have absolutely no problem with this but some androphilics feel very threatened which I find so very odd. This quality is very much absent in the younger androphilic transsexuals who seem to have a higher level of self esteem. As an example I note Geena Rocero or Janet Mock's support of Caitlyn Jenner (my opinion of Jenner aside).

One of the notable things about the tone of the site I am referring to and others like it is that it takes the position that gynephilic transsexuals and transgenders represent some sort of a conspiracy when most would rather just not have this problem at all and just be normal men. I know I always did but was finally forced to give up and just became myself.

But at its core it is very simple: you need to establish the conclusive link that presence of arousal equals causation of transition and Blanchard spectacularly fails in this regard; let's call it science 101. Failing that litmus test, tearing down this hypothesis becomes like shooting fish in a barrel. So If this individual is hanging their hat on any of the existing research well good luck with that because I've digested all of it and it's spectacularly lacking. But bullies always operate the same way and you know how I feel about them.

The truth is we know very little about transsexualism and there is still so much more to learn.

If you are interested you will find the link to the site here.

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