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what keeps me going

What continues to drive this blog you ask? Scientific curiosity, a desire to help others like myself plus distaste for bullies, mean-spirited ignorants and of course pseudoscience masking as science.

It's a long and tough road for people like us most especially if you fall somewhere in the middle of Harry Benjamin's scale. This adds another level of complexity in that your dysphoria is never truly eliminated but instead requires managing.

Continuing to write this blog is my own small payback after years of struggling with what to do.

Since coming out to everyone save for my work, my life has improved immeasurably. I was carrying a piano on my back and since beginning this blog I have dropped it and moved on. During that learning process some of the things I read on the internet were wonderful and helpful and at the other end vile and despicable. This subject invites this because we are missing data.

But anger comes from fear and insecurity and I saw no better example of this than when I happened upon a site a few years ago where transitioned women were accusing one of their own of being a late transitioning transvestite. None of these women seemed at all happy and the vituperous tone used to defamate another person revealed it. As I said this subject invites it somehow.

The instincts that have guided you in your life are not going to lead you astray. If you ask the right questions you will find answers.

Happy New Year to one and all!


  1. Happy New Year Joanna. I am happy that I found your blog. I look forward to your advice and insights. Keep up the good work.


  2. Much appreciated Michelle. Happy New Year to you as well!


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