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My father taught me to think critically.

He was a highly educated and bookish intellectual who was versed in several languages and dabbled in philosophy and religious writings. He had a huge impact on my life and yet in so many ways I never really understood him at an emotional level. His death at the age of 60 caught me off guard and I was suddenly thrust into the role of head of the household, an organizer of funerals and executor of wills.

I learnt much from him and only realized just how much after his passing. Although he knew nothing of my gender dysphoria I am sure he would have done his best to understand as he was a kind and patient man. It is thanks to him that I am able to analyze things instead of taking them at face value. My need to understand and examine I credit in large part to him and is why this blog still exists today.

People are writing about us who have no concept of what it feels like to be us and are making conclusions and judgment calls based on very little actual information.

I know that many if not most transgender people go by feel and don’t concern themselves with this aspect but it is my opinion that they should because acceptance and tolerance rests on accurate information rather than speculation.

Informing yourself with facts may not facilitate explaining to others what being transgender feels like but at least it allows you to dispel misinformation which is rampant all over the internet. Most people in the world literally have no understanding of what gender dysphoria feels like and are making up their own minds about all of this with nothing concrete in their hands. It doesn't help when you actively have some clueless academics doing their best to muddy the waters.

Arming yourself with knowledge is the best way to fight ignorance no matter where it resides.


  1. It is amazing how transformative knowing more about what drives you can be.

    In this respect the Internet has indeed been a blessing.

    There is another side to this that is equally important. By discussing crossdreaming and trans issues with others we also come to realize that we are not alone. I think that alone has saved a lot of lives.

    1. Jack arming myself with information literally saved my sanity. Now that I understand myself better I can breathe and I can try and help others do the same


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