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I live in one of the oldest cities in North America and 2017 will be our 375th anniversary. Montreal is a vibrant and multicultural city with a strong French and English background now accented with other cultures which have helped create a very unique mosaic.

Many of us speak three languages as we have come from other from parts of the Americas, Europe, Africa or Asia and have added English and French to our mother tongue.

In case some of you were wondering, Montreal is a very open and accepting city when it comes to transgender people and I have never had any issues moving about as Joanna.

I have lived here most of my life after moving here at the age of 10 and would be hard pressed to leave. In spite of the inconveniences of our winters, I am so glad to be able to call this beautiful city home.














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  1. I have been to your wonderful city over a dozen times starting with a teenage camping trip on the locks and more recently on some business trips. When both kids were in college we made a day trip. my older child was in Plattsburgh and the family spent a day and evening a few years back. We walked up and down St. Katherine's and stopped for dinner. We were the first to be seated for dinner in a restaurant that looked out on the street. The restaurant filled quickly but my wife could not see the incoming patrons until she went to the ladies room and came back to the table to report that she was likely the only female in the place. I always enjoy my time in Montreal. The city and the people are special.
    Pat

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    1. well look me up when you are here Pat!

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