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the information age

The most important and valuable asset to have in this life is to be your own person. To have the ability to shake off criticism and be true to you is nothing short of miraculous strength. Not everyone possesses this ability and many of us acquire it only later in life. But this is the best tool in your arsenal that will allow you to survive in the world.

I was a dutiful pleaser, shy and self-conscious which only helped prolong my discomfort. Add to that a deep secret and I had a recipe for much grief. But I look back at that as part of my formation of who I am today and I am not sure skipping any steps would have been beneficial because it helped form my character as a person.

Those of you who grew up in the 60’s and 70’s (or earlier) know how hard it was for people like us. There was little information and no place to turn for help for fear of ridicule. There was no internet where you could find a kindred spirit.

So when I see today’s transgender youth having the kind of resources I wish I had I smile and rejoice that maybe one less young person has to take this journey entirely alone.

The internet has been a Godsend but it can also mislead. The trick is to know where to look and what to believe. But there again the onus falls back on the individual to know what is right for them.

Today young teens find others like themselves on YouTube and commiserate and sometimes follow another's lead. They document whole segments of their lives and post when the spirit moves them. It is after all the age of social media and instant gratification.

There are two sides to every coin, but I still think that the world is better for the availability of information that people my age lacked.

My 80 year old mother now possesses a tablet and no longer watches television because she is fascinated with the instant accessibility of information. She has also become part of this new information age.





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