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a measured risk

I don't think I have an androgynous face but instead one which can be made up to look female. When I was younger I could at times be confused for a girl but it didn't happen enough to make me paranoid. Every time it happened it would frustrate and profoundly embarrass me although deep down I was not as offended as my indignation would suggest.

Today this all works in my favour and allows me to move about more freely in the world as Joanna. I can now not imagine what it would be like without the degree of “passing” this affords me (as much as I know this term offends some).

Transgender people who can easily be singled out need to be far braver than I am and risk physical injury every time they step out the door. If this doesn’t make detractors understand how serious this issue is I don’t know what will because that takes courage.

We read about attacks and killings on a regular basis with undoubtedly a great many incidents never reported. There are some sick and dangerous people in this world who lack empathy and would not hesitate to do harm to a trans person.

I am out there with the kind of defiance that says you cannot judge me for you do not know me but I realize that many people live in communities where moving about the way I do is unthinkable.

I am thankful and very aware that others have gone before me and paved the way for the rest of us to be able to have greater freedom and acceptance.

Sometimes the price of being yourself is extremely high in this world and I would dearly love to see that change.



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