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learning to let go...

Last time I took an IQ test I scored around 135. While this puts me in the top 2% of the general population, it's not exactly good enough to qualify for Mensa (it starts at 147) nor does it qualify for genius level.

Being intelligent has given me advantages in life but perhaps also made it more difficult in that it has often meant overthinking things and always wanting to know the whys. That desire to comprehend is why I had such a hard time accepting that I was transgender. Things like that just weren’t supposed to happen to a person like me; not when every other area in my life seemed to be under my control.

As I age one of the most important things I am learning is to let go and accept. This has removed a good deal of stress from my life and, as I approach the end of my 54th year of existence, I am still learning about myself and every day find some new grain of perspective to chew on.

Repatriating part of who you are takes time and what I used to see as an appendage to be cut away has been assimilated into my personhood. This means not trying to overcompensate with faux masculinity to hide something I no longer need or even wish to.





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  1. Joanna,

    I don't know what my IQ is but, like you, I've spent a considerable effort investigating transgender and thought about it very much. Thank goodness we are all learning that the fact is that, while we may be uncommon, like left handed people or those with blue eyes, we are perfectly normal, like everyone else.

    This video is unrelated but I just came across it and I think you'll love it. Hope you're able to view it in the UK: http://youtu.be/PIvCh3EQv1Q

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  2. Thanks for the heads up Emma will check out the video...

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  3. "Last time I took an IQ test I scored around 135. While this puts me in the top 2% of the general population, it's not exactly good enough to qualify for Mensa".

    Actually, it could be. IQ is not a fixed measure; it all depends on the particular test being taken.

    Qualifying for Mensa requires a top 2% result in whichever test, but the generated IQ "score" for each test differs substantially. The two used by Mensa are the Cattell IIIB and the Cattell Culture Fair. For the first of those, you need to score 150 or higher; for the second, 135 would be good enough.

    Similarly, the tests online that give an IQ of 180 or whatever are completely meaningless, since you don't know what the percentiles are.

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  4. Thanks for clearing that up for me Jonathan

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