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the stranger on the subway

Lyne just approached me while we were both in the same subway car. Out of the corner of my eye I could sense that this woman wanted to say something to me and finally she did. She sat in front of me and sheepishly asked me if I was a transgender woman.

She hadn’t been sure which is why she hesitated and then as she got closer she later told me she was even less so but felt awkward to back off once we were face to face.

Lyne is a lesbian woman who doesn’t know a lot of transgender people and she wanted to offer words of encouragement. She also admitted that she was curious. So we spoke while our rides overlapped and ended up exchanging phone numbers. Since then we have met twice for coffee and it turns out that she is a very nice person.

She is not overtly masculine and yet gives off an aura that she leans more towards that side of the spectrum. She doesn’t wear a stich of makeup and her mannerisms are more gender neutral than anything else. You might have to think a few minutes before deciding on her orientation based exclusively on her physical presentation.

For the record I have never known a lesbian woman personally.

She told me her life has been difficult and her homophobic and verbally abusive father was not amused when she came out. He and her mother divorced when she was in her mid-teens and this fracturing had a deep impact on her despite his obvious flaws. Her mother was also not amused when Lyne came out to her and tried desperately to have her recant.

She also told me that for a time she weighed the idea of transitioning into a male but finally discounted it.

Lyne is clearly very much at peace with who she is and offers no apologies to anyone which is clear when you speak to her. There is almost a militant confidence present perhaps borne out of the pain and suffering that those of us who buck the system need to overcome in order to lead authentic lives.

Seems to be the universal theme for the LGBTQ community.


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  1. It's so nice to hear about your meeting Lyne. She sounds delightful and fun to have as a new friend.

    I've known several lesbian and gay people over the years, and dated a lesbian way back when. But she tossed me for her girlfriend which was interesting! It was all okay, no harm no foul.

    Earlier in my life I wondered if I should try to have a relationship with a lesbian woman who wanted to take the more masculine side of the relationship. It didn't come to pass for me but I now have an online friend who is lesbian and is looking for exactly that. She has such a relationship some years ago, they broke up for some reason, and she misses having a transgender woman as her wife.

    Emma

    P.S. Sorry I mistook you for British instead of Canadian! Your spelling of some words made me come to that conclusion. Oops!

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