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born and not made

There is absolutely no question in my mind that a transgender person is born and not made. I know this in my bones because I tried to kill off this part of myself for so many years to no avail and some who read my blog may have tried to do the same.

Still there are those in society who would accuse us of adopting this “lifestyle” by choice and I would pose to them one simple question: Why would one choose something that was potentially going to get them rejected and scorned by their families and the rest of society?

The good news is that once you get past the difficult self-acceptance part the rest is far easier especially as we age and begin to care far less about what others think. That feeling of liberation is priceless and after having jailed yourself for years it will feel amazing when you get past the caring stage.

Some of you are in the process of transition whether it is social or full while others may be making their first tentative steps towards allowing themselves a freer range of gender expression. But whatever the formula you cannot move forward without acknowledging that this is a permanent fixture of your identity and not some self created fetish.

That dreadful self-consciousness when taking your fledgling steps becomes replaced over time with a normalcy and a sense of well-being that must be experienced. The closest way to describe it is like feeling like a fraud versus feeling genuine and the nerves become replaced with self-certainty and peace.

Once you understand that you are a leopard that can’t change its spots everything becomes wholesome and real and perhaps for the first time in your life you begin to feel what it’s like to feel respect for your own nature.

You simply stop fighting your instincts and become you.

As a postscript: my post on Julia Serano and AGP is now up to 686 views.


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