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It's been two years since I consulted anyone for my dysphoria and this past Friday I decided to call Helene Cote. She gave me an appointment for this evening at 7 pm.

Right now I just need a person to talk to face to face with who understands this subject.

It is going to be more than anything a status report of where I am in my life and to maybe vent a little.

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  1. Hi Joanna,

    I second Mandy's wishes for you. Good for you that you're reaching out for help. We all need someone supportive that we can be entirely open with.

    Emma

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    1. yes if nothing else it allows me to open up to someone who deals regularly with the same issues..

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  2. I hope all is well, Joanna. Will try to write when I get a chance.

    Calie xx

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    1. yes they are Calie just some catch up maintenance

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