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Happy New year

2016 wasn’t my best year ever and yet there was much personal growth.

I reflected much on where I am in my life and where I want to be in the future. There are no concrete physical goals for career or other achievements but it’s more about personal internal growth and finding more humour in being transgender.

This was a deadly serious topic for me for the longest time and it stymied me. I didn’t know how to fit this way of being into my life and it felt like an unwelcome appendage.

Your dysphoria cannot be ignored so treat it; that is my hope for you in 2017. Find yourself in the darkness before you drift off to sleep and reflect with the maturity of an adult intending true self discovery. Find your own way and don’t take anyone else’s path as your own.

Learn to forgive your failings and find the joy in little things that life has to offer. Most of those are virtually free and come wrapped in the balance of self respect and acceptance that you are different.

Happy New Year to all of you.

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  1. And a Happy New Year to you too, Joanna! I am looking forward to what you have to say in the new year.

    As you point out, each and every journey is unique and has to be you unique, but there is still a lot to learn from fellow travellers.

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    1. Thanks Jack and the same to you and Sally. You know how much I love commenting on your articles!

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  2. Well said Joanna. Happy new year.

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  3. Happy New Year, Joanna. I love reading your thoughts. Here's to another year of good reading.

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    1. Thanks Calie we are much alike. Thanks for your support and a prosperous new year to you and your family!

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  4. Few of us are truly happy, so grab what you can get and savor it. I hope 2017 opens doors for you (and me).

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    1. I will certainly toast to that! Happy New Year to you!!

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