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it was bound to happen and I'm glad

Yesterday I was in the city centre for a bit before meeting my friend Lyne for dinner and stopped to have a light snack since I hadn’t eaten lunch.

I sit down to eat and turn to my left and I see one of my work colleagues staring me square in the face. He knows me very well so he knew it was me. After two seconds of trepidation I waived him over and we started to chat.

Not only wasn’t it a big deal to see me dressed but he was fascinated. He is a lovely fellow and you could see it changed nothing for him, in fact he said as much.

He was there with his wife and baby daughter and we all spoke for about 45 minutes.

I went into my lifelong struggle with gender dysphoria and he listened intently. He later added that if I ever needed to make the change that people would adapt and accept me. I believed his earnestness. They were both lovely and matter of factly about it all.

I was very glad this happened because it was further proof of my solid stance these days. I didn’t miss a heart beat and was comfortable which in turn made him even more comfortable. He told me that people need to be who they are.

How right he is.

I discussed all of this with Lyne over dinner and she found it delightful and almost prophetic.

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  1. A wonderful step forward for you!

    Hugs,

    Mandy

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  2. Many times our biggest fears turn into open doors to escape.

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  3. Good for you! It's another step in your journey.

    I experienced a similar event online with a motorcycle buddy. Despite my apprehension at its possibility, the reality turned out well, as it did for you. I'm happy for you.

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  4. Very good for you, Joanna! Your story gave me chills in a good way.

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  5. Dear Joanna,

    First, I love your blog. We are in very similar stages of our gender journey.

    Thank you for sharing this. This is bound to happen to me one day soon. Your example of how to handle the situation will be foremost in my mind during that 5 seconds I will get to make the correct conclusion on how to proceed!~

    Cheers,

    Marcia

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    1. I am so glad you found my experience helpful Marcia. It certainly pleasantly surprised me..

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  6. Awesome! Heartening all the way around!

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  7. Joanna, what a great story and experience for you. Thank you for sharing it with us. I've thus far come out to 21 people, including family, friends, and professional colleagues, and all have been supportive, even a cousin who lives in Indiana!

    I think we are all very fortunate to be living at a time when knowledge, awareness, acceptance and, dare I say, appreciation, for transgender people has never been greater.

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  8. I hope the long-term consequences of this chance encounter will be just as positive.

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    1. well Kati he emailed me today and told me how honoured he was that he got to know me better so it was definitely positive!

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