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serenity

I wanted a fresh look to the blog to reflect my changing attitude.

Over the last year I have been in the process of refashioning my life and the loose edges are starting to finally come together. Time alone affords you the luxury of reflection and I have been doing much of that.

Things happen to us and then comes the post mortem where you draw lessons from the experience. You ask yourself what you might have done differently and where you might want to be going forward.

Many of my preconceptions have been dissolved away and I realize that over much of my life I had been doing myself a partial disservice. One day it dawns on you that is okay to be a little selfish and to not compromise on what you need; life is difficult enough so why make things worse.

The results of this process have been trickling in slowly like light filtering through a small crack in a closed window. How I want to live out the rest of my life provided I stay healthy is a question which will be answered in due course. The only person you can control is yourself and everything else is beyond your grasp allowing us only an influence which disappoints when we realize it is not of the magnitude that we expected. Dealing with my son's anxiety has taught me this lesson on its very own.

This is harder to digest for someone who has always sought to control things and I am realizing that sometimes the best approach is to let life handle things with its own organic messiness. It is not about being shoddy but simply not fighting uselessly against what you cannot impact with your force of will alone.

It brings to mind American theologian Reinhold Niebuhr’s serenity prayer which I would do well to keep in the foreground at all times:

“God, grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change, the courage to change the things I can, and the wisdom to know the difference”


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  1. All I can contribute here is a heartfelt, yes.

    The new look is lovely and clean by the way.

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  2. Nice new format. I'm sorry life is so full of choices for you but, on the positive side, choices enable us to make improvements. Good luck with that.

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    1. And this exactly how I am viewing it thank you

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  3. All the best Joanna!

    As I have the book open on my desk at the moment..

    “Things just happen in the right way, at the right time. At least when you let them, when you work with circumstances instead of saying, 'This isn't supposed to be happening this way,' and trying harder to make it happen some other way.”
    Benjamin Hoff, The Tao of Pooh

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