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far from the norm

I am buying a sandwich at Subway when an older man comes up to me and asks:

“Excuse me Madame but might you be by any chance taller than 5’ 12”?”

He was nice enough and you could see he was a little down on his luck. I told him that I was 6’ before heels and that seemed to satisfy him. The young woman who has been serving me smiles politely in my direction. I then tell her that when young I resented my height (which was true in terms of trying to pass inconspicuously in public).

She says “I think it’s great to be tall and you should be proud” for which I thank her.

When I finish my lunch I happen to pass in front of this gentleman again and he says:

“Thank you for not being offended because I like to see people outside the norm whether very small or very large” to which I respond that I am very accustomed to receiving comments on my height (which is also true).

He then says to me:

“You are a lovely woman”

I smile and then I'm on my way thinking just how far from the norm I really am.


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  1. I tried being normal once. It did not work out.

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  2. Great metaphor in the picture illustrating your point.

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  3. "I smile and then I'm on my way thinking just how far from the norm I really am."

    Or, well, how far from this particular norm.

    We are all many deviations from many means. It just depends on the which norm we're measuring.

    We all have that in common. ;-)

    ---Formerly known as Whatever, Yeah. Need a better moniker than the inversion of a troll's

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