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the final proportion

If I give the impression here that I have all figured out its not my intention for I struggle with my dysphoria every day. Sometimes you are sure where you stand and then your thoughts go elsewhere and start reflecting on how to make a new life after a transition.

The truth is that I take things one day at a time and do my best to deal with my reality while I reflect on what will make me the most stable and happy. One thing is for certain: the more time and effort you have invested in going in a certain direction in life, the more complex any reversal becomes. It is with that understanding that I proceed forward and let the natural progression of my life help give me answers. After all this has been working well thus far.

A physical transition is off the table, however some form of social transition is not. This decision is based not only on the fact that I have already had a stroke but also on the lack of need of FFS, GRS or even vocal chord surgery to be myself.

I am already living part time in each gender role with the only remaining question being what the final proportion will be.

Happy Easter to all of you!


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  1. Joanna, you have a good grasp on life - Whatever the "final proportion" I am sure it will be well thought out, planned and executed beautifully. Have a wonderful Sunday,,,,

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    1. Thank you so much my friend Rhonda. I was thinking that you personify the well adjusted transgender person....

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