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what does your dressing mean?

This post was prompted by reading what could have been the last post from the recovering crossdresser who seems happy to have sworn off the practice.

Here is a simple litmus test for you.

If refraining from crossdressing brings you distress then you might be denying part of your identity. Conversely if its practice starts to feel like an addiction it could be something to curb or even stop.

Most people who fit the latter description tend to have begun as a way to relieve stress or for sexual pleasure but then it began to interfere with the life they actually wanted for themselves. This is one way to know how it might not be for you.

Understanding yourself can take time and for the longest I mistakenly identified as someone who needed to recover except that I wasn't dressing all that often and it was the suppression of an important aspect of my identity which was causing me anxiety.

Knowing whether it is an intrinsic part of who you are as a transgender person forms part of the journey of self discovery.



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  1. I read that post you referred to as well. I was kind of taken aback, honestly. Regardless, I agree that it can be hard to sort out ones gender euphoria feelings since they get muddled in sexuality. And even then one needs to get past the euphoria (similar to infatuation with a new lover) to find the real self.

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    1. True that Emma but not everyone who crossdresses is gender dysphoric and their motivation may be different. No great shame in discovering this...

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