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Suddenly the young woman sitting across from me on the metro asks me for the time.

She noticed my thrift store bag with the purse I had just bought and I noticed her blouse which was a very funky pasley pattern and suited her perfectly. Turns out it was also a second hand find.

"Very nice" I said as I pointed to her choice of garb and gave her the time. She then pointed to my bag with the same thrift chain logo where we had both scored our bounty.

I bought my purse for a whopping $8 and it was genuine leather to boot.

We bantered back and forth across the aisle about what a great deal each of us had made and then suddenly it was her stop and we wished each other a good day.

Later that afternoon waiting in line at the dollar store the woman in front of me turns around and smiles and tells me remembers me from the Salon des Metiers d'arts which is the annual gift show at Christmas. She was a merchant and thought about asking me to try on one of her bigger dresses and take a picture. I told her I would be happy to oblige her later this year. She was really a lovely person.

I just need to be myself and that now overrides any slight hesitation I used to have about engaging people in conversation. So far it's been paying off in that I also get to learn a little bit about the people I encounter and more about myself in the process.


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  1. Indeed, in general we just need to smile, look people in the eyes, and allow conversation to unfold. And women often feel more at ease talking with other women so you're good to go!

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    1. it's about being yourself and being confident Emma

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  2. I love the way women communicate - To be in that world we need to be prepared to be ourselves. Shared complements are wonderful ice breakers. Your two experiences show how well you are being accepted. Enjoy....

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    1. It is easier for me than it used to be that's for sure Rhonda

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  3. That's nice. Good for you.

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