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my kind of transition

Transition late in life brings a whole host of challenges all of which I have weighed in my mind at great length.

This is why I have decided that were there to be such a thing for me it would be social. I don’t want my son or daughter affected by a sudden and drastic change in my presentation. Plus I have lived almost 55 years this way and my formula works if imperfectly.

The time for a full transition would have been before children and before marriage.

This doesn’t mean that I cannot make the best of the life I have made for myself and honour my transgender nature the way I have been doing increasingly well over the last number of years. There may even be a full or part time job at some point for me working as Joanna although that remains to be seen.

I have also decided that the best way to leave myself that flexibility is to forget about a relationship of any kind. At this point in my life I am happy living alone and whatever person entered my life would only introduce a whole host of limitations in dealing with my dysphoria. Life is challenging enough as it is.

There are always ways to manage gender dysphoria within the reality that you live right now. It may not be perfect but it is better than the alternative I used to live which left me feeling despondent and powerless.

My transition thus far has involved changing my thought patterns and accepting who I am while remaining embedded in my current reality.


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  1. There is no one right way to live one's life. I like that illustration. Red, yellow, or blue, you are still you.

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  2. It seems to me a sensible way of going forward. Knowing you (at least as well as one can know someone via their writing which may mean that I don't really know you at all), I am confident that you will strike a well-tuned balance between your two worlds. All the best to you, Joanna.

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    1. thanks Kati one has to find a way to grapple with dysphoria that takes into account how you got here and what your reality is right now...

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