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my daughter gets a bigger eyeful

My daughter wanted to attend a faith service at her boyfriend's church and asked if she could stay over on Saturday night. Of course I said yes and reminded her that I attend the 8 am mass as Joanna while her service was at 11.

On a Sunday the bus and metro schedule is slow and it would be easy for me to simply drop her off and he would then just take her home. But then the rub was would I change clothing just to do that.

For the record my daughter has seen me dressed before but this would be 15 or 20 minutes in close quarters in the car and I hesitated. As much as she reassured me that it was no big deal to her I hesitated because my whole life has been about shielding everyone from my being transgender.

So I explained my state of mind and she assured me that taking public transit was no big deal for her. So we left it at that and I stewed over it for a while before calling her back and telling her I would drive her.

Two things changed my mind: I am tired of shielding people from this and I want to be proud of who I am. So while I could have hidden myself away I decided that my daughter needed to get a bigger eyeful of her transgender father.

We had a dinner recently where we spoke about this subject and I continue to be amazed at the things this generation is not bothered with and even as it is my choice not to rub my identity in my children's faces, I am glad they can look past everything and just see me.

Not only was the drive no big deal, but on a lighter note it turns out I have helped create a thrift store junkie.....


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  1. Good for you, Joanna. I can well imagine how you felt. Now, I suspect that your relationship with your daughter is that much stronger.

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    1. You know Emma my relationship with both of them has improved over time but even more so because I was able to share this important element and explain it although they are so much more plugged in than we ever were...

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  2. Excellent...you did well. My impression is that the younger generation is more accepting now than it was even as recently as 5 years ago... And it cements a good relationship with your daughter.

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