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I have trouble with smugness and arrogance.

It seems to work for some people and they will use it to advance their cause of establishing dominance or perceived status. I am dealing with one such person now on a project and I am finding it best to not let that get to me or at least be sure to make it not show. By doing that you give the smug person more power.

Learning to cope with people is that hardest thing about my business which involves a large amount of interaction and coordination. People’s egos and styles get in the way and their personal ways of communicating impact their core message. They may want to send a clear statement but their method affects its effectiveness.

Over the years I have had to adjust to these types of people but it doesn’t get any easier when you encounter one. The only thing you can control is your own attitude to them as nothing you will do will change them. Sometimes they want to get a certain reaction or are used to being listened to intently and hate being interrupted. They will almost invariably brag about how proficient and effective they are.

I am learning to get better at not letting them get under my skin which might be one of the distinct advantages of aging.

Just do your job I tell myself.


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  1. Lots of deep breaths, inward sighing. I remember all too well having to deal with similar individuals, mostly men but an occasional woman. I'm drawn toward people who wish to collaborate.

    I believe that people like us form much deeper and long lasting relationships too. Over the past couple of months I've come out to over one hundred ex-colleagues and in some cases, their spouses. It's felt so good to hear their support as well how much they appreciate our times together.

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