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winding down

This blog is slowly winding to a logical end because with it I have accomplished everything I needed to. It was a deep dive into my own psyche which necessitated an exploration of the literature that would help explain why I am this way.

With my self-acceptance has come a calmer version of myself and as I enter into my latter part of my life I can say I have done everything to try and unravel the mystery that is gender dysphoria.

Much of what is written on this subject is necessarily false because so much is contradictory and there can only be one truth. What I do know is that most of the people who are very vocal on it have an agenda and are trying to sway others. At my age this has zero impact on my life but deliberate deceit bothers me and I feel it should be corrected. Were the science on this subject matter solid we could all just sit back and say we had an answer but we really don’t.

I am not done just yet but I am certainly done writing on a daily basis and maybe this blog will just fizzle out slowly. Regardless it has been my great pleasure to write it with my life changing markedly over the last 5 years it has been in existence.

I cannot write without an objective and telling you my life story on a daily basis would completely bore me and you as well. My only message to you is that you live your life not caring one whit about what anyone has to say about it. If they have a problem with you it is because their own insecurity is driving that impetus; this is basic human psychology.

In that light it is better to look after your own house while free of fear and what people will say or do because I will let you in on a little secret: the world is full of stupid and ignorant people and if you wait for them to change you won’t live a happy and productive life.

What you do or don’t do to manage your gender dysphoria is entirely your own business and most people who decide to transition don’t do so easily or frivolously.

Just know that whatever method works for you is the right one.


  1. All right. I get your point, and I do understand that there will be fewer posts, but I do sincerely hope that you will write from time time.

    First of all: hearing about your life story is not boring it all. Crossdreamers need to know more about how others cope in their lives, regardless on what journey they are on, and how far they have come.

    Secondly: This blog is also full of insightful observations about being trans, from a social, political and biological point of view, that goes far beyond your personal life. I know that I am not the only one who enjoy the way you look at gender variance.

    Finally: You have also published posts on life and society in general, which are equally interesting.

    I guess I am saying that I would hate to see this blog die completely.

  2. I second Jack's thoughts. I've admired and greatly appreciated your daily posts. It's been like one of those calendars where you can tear off each page, wondering and looking forward to what's next. But I've also considered how much time it takes and can see where it could be a grind. Coming up with the topic, then the "story," and the photo. How about turning it into a weekly? That might renew your interest and, I assure you, I'd look forward it each installment.

  3. I have never updated my personal blog on a daily basis. It's hard enough to find the time to research posts and update TC on a daily basis. As to my personal blog, I write only when I feel like writing.....and generally that's when I am down. I haven't written in a very long time, so I suppose that's a good thing.

    You're a fab writer, Joanna. It stops being fun when you force yourself to write daily. We all look forward to your words, so just blog when you feel in the moment.

    Calie xx

  4. I appreciate all of your comments and perhaps weekly is the way to go for now...thanks to all of you!

  5. I will miss your daily writing. You are insightful and interesting. Meeting you only enhanced my appreciation for your intelligence and clear thinking. I will missing reading your thoughts daily. Please do keep us posted on your journey.

    1. it was a pleasure meeting you as well Rhonda and amazing to see how a trans person can have a foot in both camps and really make a go of it with dignity. I am not leaving just yet but just need to slow the writing down a bit...


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