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I don’t need to write but I enjoy it. Therefore I have decided to keep the blog active without feeling the pressure to write every day.

If I do that’s fine but I won’t hold myself to that as a requisite.

As my gender conflict has subsided I have begun to morph this blog to include observations on society in general, politics, religion, philosophy and any other topic that motivates me to express my thoughts.

I thank all of you for your sincere comments and emails regarding this blog and have used that as motivation to continue.

Of course gender will continue to form part of my writing because I have spent countless hours reflecting on it since I was young. When you are different much energy is spent trying to determine why your inclinations rub against the grain of society and that conflict eventually and hopefully resolves itself into self definition.

So the theme here will continue to be social justice and shining a light on the dark places of our world where people are kept in physical and/or psychological chains.

I am currently experiencing so much liberation and am looking forward to the next period of my life should God continue to grant me health of mind and body.

There is absolutely no substitute for being truly yourself.


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  1. Yes, of course. On the subject of blogging, we should do what we enjoy, write about what matters to us and it's natural for that to evolve. Being rigid about it is unhealthy. So follow your instincts, even if you end up telling us about motorcycling. :-)

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    1. P.S., I'm going to be in Toronto in two weeks! Visiting two female blogger-friends.

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    2. Hey Shybiker, I'm headed to Alaska now, driving my little Winnie up the Alcan with a KLR650 strapped onto a carrier in the back. Going to be doing some backroad exploring up there. We girls dig bikes too! :-)

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    3. ha ha I know how much you love your bike Ally!

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