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Things are going fine in Toronto and I have made a new routine for myself.

For example, Simons has opened a store in Mississauga and this lovely young lady who works there named Rica is so nice to me when she sees me. She is also from Montreal and she asked me how I like it so far. She greets me with “so you’re back!” with such a warmth and friendliness.

It is not hard to establish a routine when you are accustomed to living a certain way and I don’t give presenting as Joanna a second thought anymore because I am not out there to test myself as much as to just be myself. Spending entire weekends as Joanna has also allowed me to see where my comfort zone lies.

Walking into places like Sephora I am not even noticed and then suddenly one of the young sales representatives will greet me and ask me how she can be of service. I am just another woman customer to them and no one even so much as furls a brow in my presence; something which I very much owe to knowing who I am on the inside.

Yesterday in the same Square One shopping center with the Simons store I asked someone where the men's department was as I was looking for some pants for the office. Suddenly we were deep in conversation because she found out I was from Montreal (where she was also originally from) and we must have carried on for a good 10 minutes before we were both on our way.

It's just comfortable.



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  1. Good for you! Moving in the right direction is always positive, especially when it occurs with increasing ease.

    Seeing your mention of Mississauga reminds me of something I don't know if you saw on my blog. Last month, while visiting two thrift-stores in Mississauga (Talize) with my friends, I did something I've never done before: used a store dressing room to try on women's clothing. A baby-step, perhaps, but in the right direction.

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    1. There you go Ally..baby steps and whatever works for you

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