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Reading Clare Fluorish’s latest post got me thinking about the idea of innate femininity. Transgender male to females possess it in droves (at least the ones I know) and yet in order to sell the idea of transgender as a perversion the possibility that innate femininity could exist in gynephilics was said to be absurd.

Some insisted that a gynephilic transgender woman was no different from a man who gets turned on by wearing women’s underwear. We saw it in Alice Dreger’s laughable 2013 article (which Calie was kind enough to feature on T-central) and it is still propagated by radical feminists and older androphilic transsexuals who have used Blanchard’s damaging attempts to discredit woman loving gender dysphorics.

In order for that innate femininity to exist it should show up in childhood but the problem is that many of us were not demonstrably effeminate because we learned very early to conceal it from the public eye. To show any signs would have meant ridicule and I saved mine for the privacy of my room.

Androphilics of course cannot seem to hide it and like a very feminine gay male everything about them gives that away. It is part of their intrinsic wiring. But if femininity is possible very early it lends credence to the idea that being transgender is rooted in identity and not in sexual perversion. Sure cross gender arousal exists but it is a result of having male plumbing and testosterone running through your veins.

So is transition for some a way out of social constraints to escape the obligation of masculinity or a force onto itself which commands a change because the dysphoria is too strong? Many genetic women (my friend Lyne included) want to escape femininity which acts like an anvil around their neck and every person is a combination of both masculine and feminine traits which they are comfortable with and usually exist in proportions that align with expectation.

In the end I have come to the conclusion that gender dysphoria is its own entity which must be addressed somehow or it will haunt you but I don't think its source lies solely in the roots of the masculine versus the feminine.



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