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getting off the merry-go-round

Your brain holds incredible power and the difference between having a stable and happy life versus a miserable one lies largely within its boundaries.

Your thought process can hold you captive and have you see the world through a filter where you are a permanent victim and many of us rely on thinking that sees us remain in prisons that we hold the keys to.

If we take it as a given that life is naturally complex and unpredictable all we can control is how we process that reality hence you can choose to suffer from that variability or use it more to your advantage.

The other day a young writer was being interviewed on CBC radio during which she stated “one day we’ll be dead and none of this will matter” which simplified everything down to one universal truth which is that much of what we do here is biding time. Seeing things in that light is actually liberating because it helps you focus on what is real and what is important in your life and, when you wipe away all the distractions and things we stress over, you realise with more clarity where your priorities should lie.

For me, part of that clarity includes increasingly not caring one whit about the opinions of a fickle society that mires itself in trivialities and spins in circles of confusion.


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  1. Indeed! Nothing is quite so relentless as the part of our brains that just keeps generating thoughts. Thinking is good, of course, but being repeatedly held hostage to the next thought that pops into our heads is not. It's so easy to get lost there.

    Learning to step out of that stream, and just observe the parts of the mind that keep generating thoughts is hard work, but as liberating as you describe. One really can begin to feel what matters now, what is within one's control, which thoughts are worth paying attention to and which are better let go.

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    1. As "real" as our thoughts may seem, they are all too often - especially for the negative ones - not based in fact. Easy for me to say, hard for me to put into practice, but I keep working on it!

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