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who are you?

Who we are can be a difficult thing to answer for many of us because we are scared or because we want to please others and be “normal”. But normal is not something many of us ever were.

I am transgender and I am much more comfortable with that knowledge than I have ever been in my life. It is something I had been running from for a very long time but now I can really see myself without distorted or preconceived ideas.

Self-understanding is also hopefully accompanied by the freedom to define oneself outside of the confines of the rules we were brought up with; most especially those which made our lives unnecessarily more complex than they needed to be. These were often about pleasing family, friends and society in general before ourselves.

Over its span my blog has devoted a lot of space to dealing with escaping restrictions and finding one’s own way because I think that is what is required here. Even the transgender community has developed its own do’s and don’ts which may not suit us.

This enhanced perspective has allowed me to hold my head up high when out in public devoid of an attitude of deliberate defiance or of anger at society. Instead I have become more focused on a quiet confidence that I can create my own unique recipe targeted at pleasing myself above all else.



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  1. This is a struggle many people share, especially those who are different in some way. The force of Procrustean conformity in society is much stronger than commonly acknowledged.

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  2. I love how you frame your experience in the last paragraph, thank you.

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  3. I relate to all of this, Joanna. Looking back it's too bad it's taken so long to come to where I am with myself. Looking forward is exhilarating! Today's a beautiful day.

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