I am reminded here that we are much more than just our earthly physical bodies and yet we live in a world constrained by them which renders these types of decisions important.
A while back and after some deliberation I decided I wasn’t going to tamper with my body in any way with the only thing outstanding being the consideration of a full social transition which is also presently on tenuous ground. During my reflection process I realized that I didn’t need to do anything further to be myself and I could adopt the best aspects of each gender and mold them to suit the psychology that I formed as a young child.
Changing my body would be in some ways like trying to subscribe in reverse to the rules of society which I could follow successfully but wasn’t happy doing. Instead I decided to make my own rules and be my own kind of transgender person.
But if transition is really for you then after the proper reflection you will know it in your bones. If, on the other hand, you feel you have erred after the fact then my only counsel would be to try and take heart in the knowledge that the best of you is a mind and spirit contained in a physical body which is simply a shell that we inhabit temporarily.