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chameleon

I adjust to the situations I find myself in. I have done that my entire life and, only when those situations change do I then consider other avenues. In other words, if I were a relationship today my plan of attack would take everything into consideration because life isn't perfect and compromise is its natural component.

Today I find myself with only myself to consider (minus some tweaks for my children) and the rules of the game have changed through circumstance. This is what now permits a different type of reflection.

Were I to meet someone today they wouldn't see the same person I was even a year ago and they would need to accept me if for no other reason that I haven't been as unconcerned with romantic love at any point in my life. This means that whatever happens or not will be left entirely to chance.

I have a lot of respect for trans people who love their spouses and adjust themselves accordingly; only their coordinate system hasn't shifted and mine has.

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  1. We are all chameleons. On romantic dates, at work, with friends, and yes, with our partners. I tried very very hard to adjust myself for my wife of 21+ years. In the end I came close to ending my life. She had to be a chameleon too and willing for us to find a common coordinate system (I grok that metaphor!). She was unable to do so, so both of us in tears, we have parted our marriage but remain very close emotionally.

    I'll be a chameleon next Saturday evening - in a happy way. I've been invited to attend an ACLU dinner featuring Laverne Cox as the keynote speaker. Just yesterday I received a couple of pretty dresses and plan on wearing one of them to the event. I want to look nice and present myself as the woman that I am. Now that's a happy chameleon!

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    1. I am glad that things are finally working out for you after so many years of struggle

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