This is how dysphoria works: it is the gap between your perceived sense of gender and your birth sex. Except, that not everyone suffers it to the same degree. That I pass as a female in public helps me tremendously and tends to my dysphoric feelings in a dramatic way.
I am very realistic about things and mull things over a million times before reacting and no matter how much I reflect and no matter how bad my dysphoria is on certain days (and some are much worse than others), I ultimately arrive at the same conclusion.
The only remaining issue at hand is whether I will ever work as a female in my current profession; in other words, will I transition socially within the next few years. I am still undecided on this issue but I will let it percolate and see what opportunities arise. However even if that option does not materialize it is not a game breaker for me.
When I am done my career is another matter altogether and then it's fair game.