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swimming 3

I went swimming again recently and ended up meeting a nice young woman in the locker room who was a native of Montreal and had never spoken French. I was quite surprised by this but I know it is possible because my city is very forgiving in this way. You can hide in plain sight and manage better than the tourists who are petrified and brush up on basic phrases beforehand.

We chatted for several minutes as we were both getting ready to leave and she confided that she was concerned about her weight. She suffers from a thyroid condition which means dieting doesn't work. When we are young we tend to be concerned by what others think but she seemed happy with herself and was just focusing on being healthy. I told her this was an admirable attitude.

This time I had a lock which means I had both my purse and phone and took a selfie in my suit and cap with no makeup except for a little waterproof foundation. The suit is all black with a little flared skirt at the bottom.

Maybe not the most flattering of pictures but then we are all there to swim after all. Plus I am no spring chicken any longer.


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