Skip to main content

indoctrination

As transgender people, organized religion hasn't really been our friend however on the other hand it has often had little to do with true spirituality. I needed to learn this over time and much of what I was taught growing up was steeped in the judgmental superstition of society instead of what some creator would demand of me.

Regardless of your belief system, you are a child of the universe and have been endowed with uniqueness and goodness of spirit. You have probably never wished anyone ill will and you have tried your best to live within the absurd coordinate system of humanity. Yet somehow belonging to the LGBT community was entirely your fault.

As I have grown older this inherent irrationality became increasingly evident to me. I knew I was a fundamentally good person and yet I was different in a way which was not of my choosing. Hence with this comprehension my self appreciation and esteem grew in proportion.

Religion for me today seems forever trapped in the misinterpretations of humankind and a quickness to judge which was never it's intended purpose. It was to serve as individual light in a world of darkness to help us navigate our path to a personal salvation.

I was listening the other day to a documentary on the Church of Latter Day Saints and the rampant drug use in Utah which seems counterintuitive in such a devout state. However, some former LDS members interviewed noted that the bar for behavior was set so high that their failure led them to leave in disgust of their own inability to follow doctrine. They had concluded that this represented a personal weakness. Meanwhile, church leaders who were interviewed admitted that perhaps they had erred in setting unrealistic expectations for their flock.

As someone who suffered under Catholicism I have come full circle to better understand how to divide expectation from one's personal faith and let go of the bias which seeps in through human frailty into the infrastructure of most religions. Not an easy thing especially when you have been indoctrinated from a young age.

I think of Abby Stein growing up without televion or internet in a Hasidic community and coming to the realization that she was transgender in that perfect vacuum. Now that is personal understanding in the face of the hardest odds.


Comments

  1. Well said, Joanna. Perhaps someday we can sit together in a Sunday mass.....

    ReplyDelete
  2. Thanks for sharing, this is a very big problem indeed, as studies of cultures ,from present to as far back in history one may travel, shows spirituality is a essential need for humanity, and by way of social construct, and by way of the fact that religions are the collective view, of peoples whom create that religion at a present time,and not the "Pure Form" of the religion itself. A religion must be seen as nothing in it self, it has no force by it's self. Being raised as a Christian , I had to leave the church, and simply believe in the " Great Spirit " and simply call God now "Nature". We do have to understand religions can be good,yet only if can evolve to accept "Natures creations"

    ReplyDelete
    Replies
    1. You are welcome Mike. if the structure does not work for you, you can find your own spirituality outside the traditional. The thing about any institution is that it becomes ripe for abuse of power and human error. We need to be vigilant and somewhat skeptical at all times which is what I had to learn to do while still calling myself a Catholic.

      Delete

Post a Comment

Popular posts from this blog

how times change

How times have changed.

Whereas transition was something not to even contemplate for us, here is a young trans person who felt the opposite pressure. She looks and sounds extremely passable but decided it wasn't for her despite the social media presence of young transitioners potentially inspiring her to.

We are all different and I happen to think she's rather a smart cookie as well...


feeling sexy

Here are the results of a recent survey of genetic women:

“A new hairdo, walking in heels and a glowing tan are among the things that make a woman feel sexy. Freshly applied lipstick, newly-shaved legs and a little black dress also have a positive effect on the psyche”

Are you surprised? I’m not because it is exactly the same list that makes transgender women feel sexy.

For a long time the idea was pandered about that transsexualism was rooted exclusively in aberrant sexuality. But of course you cannot separate the sexuality from the individual because that forms part of their overall makeup and the fact that genetic and transsexual women overlap here surprises no one.

We should also add here that women aren't always thinking about sex and neither are transgender women.

Pre transition transsexuals would not readily admit they found these things sexy because they were afraid to be seen as perverted men in front of gatekeepers who understood nothing about their condition.

Today we kn…