I read Clare Flourish’s recent blog post on GRS regret where she explains how she would have been happier reaching a higher level of self-acceptance before acting, but she went for the surgery thinking it provided her with more authenticity. She is one of the smartest bloggers I read, and I value her opinion but then I also know that transition has worked marvelously for others. Some of those people I call my friends and they read this blog.
That is the point though isn’t it? There isn’t one path to grapple with dysphoria nor should there be. To follow someone else’s thinking it will work for us by default would be foolhardy. As transgender people we have a lot of reflection to do starting from an early age. We are born different and we must grapple with society and its demands and, it is often by going against those demands, that we will find our way. But that need not imply a cookie cutter one-size fits all formula.
Might I be happier starting HRT? possibly and I am still leaving the door open to that but then I am also open to my current reality which has me reveling in full self-acceptance.
There is no question it takes longer to serve as your own therapist, which is what I have done with this blog, because no matter who I chose would not have delved to the depths that my mind required. For me it wasn't just about how I felt but about exploring the subject in an in-depth way and try to get to the why and how. Having gotten to where I could go no further to advance my own cause on the scientific front, I am now focusing more on feeling and trying things on for size.
Ultimately it is about feeling and having the courage to do what is right for you which is why my support for transgender people, no matter which path they choose, knows no bounds. We all deserve to be happy and to reach that ultimate goal of finding peace in a world that will, more often than not, try to deny it.