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I want my sex back

You could be forgiven for thinking this is a propaganda film but I don't quite see it that way. It's worth watching because it is a profile of 3 people who regret having had their surgery. One of them you will recognize instantly as Walt Heyer: the crusader who thinks every transitioner can be saved through repentance. He also seems to have no qualms about spreading false statistical information.

These different people tell us what many of us already know: namely that transition is not a panacea for everything that ails you and should never be undertaken under any kind of mental duress. Interestingly, one still lives as a woman even as she professes her second thoughts and, to my eyes, still looks comfortable as one.

This short film doesn't pretend to present both sides of the issue because clearly transition has benefitted many people in this world and the regret rate is small. What this short film does, however, is serve as cautionary tale about what can happen when you have not thought things through enough.

What I took away from it is that we need to be sure and mentally stable when we undertake such a huge step. Our feet should be firmly on the ground. Still, if Jesus saved you from being trans many of us would be among his miracles but life doesn't quite work that way.

Do I believe that Walt was ever trans? Not even for a minute but you be the judge...


  1. Well, all I can say is that I've paid my dues in full......and they can keep the change. :-)


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