But later another motivation was added.
I became indignant about people who didn't share my life experience weighing in on what they thought made me tick; all in a way that I couldn't relate to. This was too much to bear for someone who had struggled over this difference for so long. Hence, I read everything I could get my hands on to be better able to arm myself but also hoping to find concrete answers. Those who read my blog know it is the product of a perfectly lucid mind so the mental illness diagnosis used to dismiss trans people will never fly with me.
After all that reading, what I ultimately learned is that we need to trust ourselves because there is a dearth of reliable information out there. Trust your instincts instead.
A lot of the fake science that has been concocted against us has an agenda; all of it. Once you comprehend this you can rest easy and find a life formula that works for you.