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The main theme from Ennio Morriconne's brilliant score to the 1985 film...


  1. As an oboe player, I thank you! I never tire of hearing it played so beautifully.

    Morricone proving once again that movie scores are the "classical music" of our time.

    1. Its awesome isn't it Halle...

    2. Indeed some of the best modern classical compositions are cinematic scores.

      Interestingly enough, some beautiful scores can also be found behind video games as well, something about which I would never have learned without chatting with my teenage nephew. Having long eschewed the pop music that has enraptured his siblings, he was explained that he actually did enjoy music, just more what he heard while gaminq. I was fascinated and asked him to play for me some of what he was referencing. It was beautiful. The particular game he showed me had a score behind it that reminded me of Dvorak, some of whose symphonies I played for him. Next thing I know, he was on YouTube looking for Dvorak and other composers the algorithms suggested for him. He didn't know that what he liked was actually a serious genre.

      Also, have either of you listened to any EDM (eletronic dance music) or Dubstep? Genres of "those kids today," much of which makes my middle aged ears bleed, they actually deserve some recognition as modern classical music, in my opinion. Consider, for instance, work of Lindsey Sterling, who fell in love with the violin as a child in the 1980s, and who now has substantial fanbase of millennials and younger generations with pieces like the following:

      (Perhaps a ray of hope for Joanna, whose concerns about the degradation of pop music are no secret?) 😀

    3. I am too transparent 😀😀


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