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a normal existence

Do I need to destroy the "he" to celebrate the "she"? This was the fundamental question which needed answering and which would dictate whether I would transition or not. In the end, the answer turned out be no.

The mulling over of a transition didn't take nearly as long as the transgender self acceptance part did; certainly less than a year. I realised that I didn't despise my physical body and simply wanted to give life to the woman living within me. Even if the little girl I might once have aspired to be was gone, she was going to live.

That sealed the deal for me and made me relax into the existence I lead today. It is not for everyone but then I am not everyone; I am Joanna.

That existential realization must cement itself to your core and only then will you rest easy. It is the same type of resolve which occurs to people who know in their bones they must transition.

Figure this out and watch your body and your mind relax into a normal existence with the caveat that you must be proud of the being you are.


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