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a pacifying noise

My blog isn't for everyone and I know it but then popularity is hardly my aim. I want to make the thinkers reflect on aspects of life from the angle of someone trans and share my perspective on how odd our existence can be such that we can try and separate the wheat from the chaff.

Our societies are made up of so much fabricated noise that a good portion of my life to date has been spent deconstructing it to find what is essential. Humanity needs to create narratives to calm itself into complacency and be able to ignore the pressing matters which require our immediate attention. We rely on pacifying noise so we don't need to think.

To do this we conceive stories of the perfect romantic scenario which leads to marriage and perhaps to children. All the way along the deception begins to reveal itself, not because those weren't good things, but because our narratives around them turned out to be false. We bought into a model of alternate reality which we thought would make us deliriously happy.

Today I am finding increasing happiness by looking behind the curtain and demolishing many of the false tenets we were sold as being gospel. I am trying to get to the grain of what we need to give our lives maximum meaning while we are here which necessitates rethinking those rules of engagement for myself.


  1. It's true we seek "pacifying noise" to distract ourselves. And most humans don't care to think hard about life. A blessing of being different is having reason to question social conformity.


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