When I wrote recently that this blog had another seven years of life in it I was trying to convince myself that it was true. It was in fact a little bit of self delusion.
With almost 3,000 posts to date I have accomplished what I set out to do which was to heal myself and in the process share some of the struggle I had been through with others on the chance they might find some value in my words. After seven years of writing, my life still isn't perfect; no one's is. But I have discovered a path forward completely free of the trappings which society would have had me adopt so I could fit in.
Over the last 25 years of my life I have turned over every stone I could find while exploring this topic and in the process realized that we haven't even begun to scratch the surface of this deeply complex subject. What I have ultimately learned is that my instincts have more value than what someone who isn't gender dysphoric writes about me. We are very much in our infancy on the scientific front which will become crystal clear in twenty years time. My last flurry of posting here was perhaps my attempt to expend the last bits of rocket fuel left in the tank and in so doing I realized I had no aims to turn this into a fashion, lifestyle, life play-by-play or even a political blog (as much as I enjoy the latter).
What I do with my life going forward is still not completely clear but my philosophy is going to be live one day at a time and adapt to what life brings me with what will hopefully be some degree of panache and an openness to still learn. Whether Joanna ultimately succeeds in living 24/7 is still open for more reflection but then I am and always have been her. From my earliest memory there was a girl there who wanted to be heard and acknowledged and for a number of years she has been getting that opportunity to manifest herself and drink a little from the elixir of life. My only counsel to you is to find your true "self" and let that nature make it's way to the surface. Do not live your life wondering "what if" and dig deep to discover who you really are inside. Find people who recognize and appreciate that soul and hold on to them as tightly as you can.
Even if I am done with this format this blog will stay online and you can still contact me through the links on the right. My writing will now turn to notes and essays which will most likely find their way into another book with a decidedly philosophical bent. Thank you to all who have read and found some value in my words and I will simply end not by saying goodbye but rather farewell for now.