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Self-acceptance can be a brutal journey most especially if you were raised in a conservative environment where your reality could be regarded as a sin or as severe mental illness. But hard as it may be, you must get there because barring that, your life risks being more difficult than it needs to be. You may end up living most or all of it in the shadows and never really know what it's like to be who you really are.

I am certain that if I can do it then so can you because I came from so far back. My strict religious upbringing and conservative nature made things very hard for me and yet I needed to persevere because I was slowly sinking and eventually hit a massive crisis by my mid 40's. That event finally forced me to come terms with who I had always been and accept instincts which were different and which were steeped in being drawn to embodying another gender; something which I had repeatedly tried to suppress and ignore while growing up because I thought I was supposed to.

I ultimately realized that these instincts were never going to change and I needed to accept myself exactly as I was. Being trans is not an easy road to begin with, but it is made considerably more rocky in the absence of self-acceptance.

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my last post

This will be my last blog post.

When I wrote recently that this blog had another seven years of life in it I was trying to convince myself that it was true. It was in fact a little bit of self delusion.

With almost 3,000 posts to date I have accomplished what I set out to do which was to heal myself and in the process share some of the struggle I had been through with others on the chance they might find some value in my words. After seven years of writing, my life still isn't perfect; no one's is. But I have discovered a path forward completely free of the trappings which society would have had me adopt so I could fit in.

Over the last 25 years of my life I have turned over every stone I could find while exploring this topic and in the process realized that we haven't even begun to scratch the surface of this deeply complex subject. What I have ultimately learned is that my instincts have more value than what someone who isn't gender dysphoric writes about me. We are …


While this blog is most definitely over, I wanted to explain that part of the reason is that it was getting in the way of writing my next book called "Notes, Essays and Short Stories from the North" which will combine philosophy, trans issues, my observations on life, some short fiction and things that have happened to me over my life and continue to (both trans related and not).

When it is complete I will post the news here and will be happy to send you a free copy upon request in either PDF or eBook format. All I ask is that you provide me with some feedback once you're done reading it.

I'm only in the early stages so it will be a while.

Be well all of you....

sample pages...

love of self

If you feel you are doing something wrong it shows. Your demeanor, body language and facial expression all conspire to betray you.

You are a clandestine "man in a dress"; you know it and everyone else can too. Your cover has been blown. I've been there and it's frustrating. The source goes back to your self image and the notion that you are somehow a freak of nature; and perhaps you are but what of it? the only way out is to embrace yourself fully and unconditionally. I don't mean to suggest that you are perfect but just that you were created this way and you need not seek forgiveness for it. You are a creation of God.

Misinterpreted religion is a big culprit in all this. These negative images of yourself came from reinforcement of stereotypes by ignorant people interpreting what is right and moral by their own barometer. You simply ingested the message and bought it as the gospel truth. Self confidence and critical thinking is the way out of your dilemma. It can…