How one deals with this reality later in life can be drastically different than if one is self accepting much earlier, and my highly personal firm decision to never medically transition is based on a long and thorough thought process which has taken me several years. That being said, I will honor my identity as a trans person in the best possible way by being proud and unapologetic about who I am. It has been a long and sometimes painful journey to get here except now I continue my life with the resolute knowledge that I have chosen a path which works for me and honors my own brand of femininity. I live part time but in three years I could very likely begin living full time; although nothing is yet certain.
However, one thing I do know is that I am finally home and, no matter which road you choose for yourself, be sure it is truly right for you and be proud of it.