Therefore I am getting myself into the mindset that I will likely stay on my own. I don't want to put Joanna back in the closet and don't want to compromise the freedom that I have given her. In all likelihood, pairing up with another person would mean putting her back into a closet. Yes it will be lonely at times but in life there are always compromises to be made. And the idea of being with someone just for the company does not appeal to me.
After an unsuccessful marriage and my recent 3 year relationship, it might be time to try and live alone and get used to it. At least I will get to see what my part time life as a woman will ask of me. How much room this other side will take will not be hindered by somone who does not welcome this strong aspect of myself.