Contrast this with Stana's femulate site and I guess I do come out looking like a "gloomy gus". Stana's site does what it does so well and it presents the picture of a woman who has made her situation work for her; so she concentrates on the more fun and trivial aspects of presenting as a woman. I know I go to her site daily if nothing else to witness the degree of comfort and confidence she displays. I have found that aspect particularly inspiring. In addition her way of working within the boundaries of her real life situation is quite exemplary. I suppose it's because she's arrived at being herself which is a place I do not yet know; I have been working so hard at doing what is expected that maybe I forgot or never learnt how.
Those of you kind enough to follow my ramblings will hopefully read an increasingly cheery Joanna in the future.