To add fuel to the fire I get pangs of wanting to get my girlfriend back but that is likely rose coloured thinking that could lead to more incongruity in my life. She has a power over me borne out of a strong attraction but the mixture can sometimes be more Molotov cocktail than the perfect martini. My life could go back to being tumultuous once again.
No matter which way one looks at it, having GID is a recipe for struggle and deep compromise. You can never find the formula that works perfectly for the sufferer because it goes so much against the grain of nature. Even the full blown transitioner has severe struggles, most especially if this occurs later in life.
I will test the waters with the anger issue because my childhood did involve exposure to a degree of dysfunction on that front. I had loving parents who did their best but there were signs of verbal abuse that I learnt to mimic and while it was not severe I feel it must be addressed if I am to continue my road towards a more congruent and internally peaceful me.