a delicate balance..,,,

Its a delicate balance my life. I am juggling parenting, gender presentation and work.

I must keep an even keel and not let my disphoria get the best of me. Whether I would personally be happier or not is not the issue. For me its about what is the best solution given my existing situation.

Sure I could uproot my life and the life of my children but at what cost? And what guarantee do I have that my quality of life will remain stable or improve?

Make no mistake in that I am having trouble managing my GID. There are days when I just want to give in to it. On those days I think of Renee Richards and other regret stories for comfort. My understanding of her case is that she was very similar to Virginia Prince; another autogynephilic male who was allowed to transition fully.

I may be one of those cases and unless I feel literally feel suicidal, I will not embark on a transition path. Mind you, I am already following one in that I am living part time which is something I never would have dreamt of doing.

Let the reflection, introspection and experimentation continue.

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