I bring an olive branch

I have no quarrels with fetishists, transexuals, autogynephiles or anyone else.

I am just trying to be comfortable now in finding a method to deal with my disphoria. If my posting has insulted anyone's sensibilities then I apologize. Part of my soul searching required to try and analyse myself and delve into the literature.

However in the end there is no perfect diagnosis and no perfect solution that covers all cases. There is only the solution that works for you and allows you to live with the least amount of brain dissonance. There is presently no genetic marker or test that predicts disphoria or transexuality.

We have in the end the word of the sufferer who, in the more extreme and clear cut cases, will scream from every mountain top "I am a girl!!!" There is a whole other group that struggles with their education, socialization, religious dictates, etc in order to finally arrive at a compromise that makes sense to them.

The other day I visited the website of a de transitioning MTF who, after living successfully and in stealth for over 32 years, decided to become a gay male. She had transitioned in her early 20's and now in her 50's decided to go back. Only he understands this and even though she is a minority among another minority her solution is relevant because it is her own.

No therapist can lead you where you don't want to go and no matter what you decide and are content with, this will be the right decision. I agree with wxh in that gender guidelines are mostly social constructs that we are mandated to follow.

I did what I was told but it went against my natural instincts and my soul. Call me male or call me female. I am done with my own self dissection.

Time to start living.

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