Lindsay sent me this comment which was posted on crossdreamlife and I admit that it did strike a chord with me because much of my own history is coloured with the shame of needing to express my own brand of femininity.
Although the above statement is something you may agree or disagree with, it does try to convey feelings which are more tied to gender expression than to identity and, while I understand fully that I am a man and can identity as one, I can at the same time acknowledge the strong pull towards expressing something which makes me feel whole.
I have expressed in this blog my confusion about whether I might truly be transsexual and whether my gender disphoria would not be best treated permanently through transition. But would a more liberating attitude towards my gender expression, one that is free of suppression, shame and guilt, be the only thing that I really need?
I am hoping that this approach helps reduce the gender discomfort I have lived with most of my life.
Since I am currently happy with my ability to express myself more fluidly, this might be as good a barometer as any to justify this approach. I hope to be able to come to the very same conclusion after having tried Helene’s group in the fall.
In the final analysis, your gender identification is your own and since no one perfectly conforms to the binary norms, its up to you to make your model work for you.
Even if I do not fully understand my need to express gender variance, I can proceed with the knowledge that its something that helps me and simply be happy with that.